Fueled by Vanity

Hello reader, if there ARE any readers. I have a new-found dedication to this blog as of yesterday when I took some time to make it look cute and amazing. I don't know if the love I feel for this place is purely psychical now and I don't plan on sitting around trying to figure it out. The beauty in a thing like a blog is the ability to be as involved as you want to be with no negative consequence, the plain truth is that at this point I'm just blabbing into dead space but to be honest I am completely okay with that. In fact, I'm more than okay with it, I'm ecstatic. Speaking more freely than I am ever able to in my everyday life with the slight chance that someone may actually read it and discover thoughts that I make a point to keep hidden, it's just the right amount of danger to keep things interesting.

Yes, sharing completely honest thoughts and having people see the real me is very dangerous.

Remember That Crush I Was Talking About??

Well, I have a new one. His name is Joseph Gordon-Levitt. While updating this very blog last night I saw him on television, and wouldn't ya know that's all it took (this is me making fun of myself) to spark my interest. To be specific, he was a guest on Conan, don't the show very much but I saw the interview with Louie C.K and decided I would check it out.

When I arrived Conan was interviewing Mr. Gordon and by commercial break I was...well interested. The movies I know Joseph from are

500 Days Of Summer:

and Inception:

But I'm sure there are many others I don't really know about. Anyway that's that and here he is:

I don't know about you but handsome men smiling makes me smile :)

Individuality and my crush on a British boy.

Hello. I am writing a paper for my Advanced Placement psychology class -a little gloating never hurt anyone ;) - about conformity. I am not so ashamed to admit that conforming is a part of human nature that will never be escaped, not by me, you, or anyone on the planet no matter how much we beg and plead for such to be true. Even in the effort to avoid conformity we find ourselves conforming, for instince it is now the norm to be "unique" however, if being unique is normal then it is no longer "unique". In any case, it is sort of pointless to chase individuality when it is an impossible thing to lose in the first place. There is no possible way to actually be exactly like anyone else on Earth, you are you! With your DNA, YOUR fingerprints and that's just that so no matter what you do you are still seperate from the person sitting beside you. INDIVIDUALITY IS EFFORTLESS.

I Have Another Crush

This time it's a guy from YouTube (go figure) he is British, lives somewhere near England I would assume. He is very cute, very funny and very much an important part of my daily thinking proccess as of late. His youtube name is: charlieissocoollike

Here's a link to one of his videos: http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjIsdbBsE8g

Check it out, maybe you will think the way I do...

However, if you don't want to be insane you should just avoid thinking the way I do.

How Did I Know?

He didn't respond.

I am not at all surprised, nor am I upset, something so ancient shouldn't be tampered with.

A Lovey Dovey Sort Of Death

Well, as you may know by now, I am a teenage girl and as everyone is aware, teenage girls often find themselves in troublesome dealings with matters of there sensitive little, hormone flooded hearts. This will be one of those dealings, this is a sincere confession of a heart that never rests.

I met him my sophomore year of high school. He was a senior and it makes me sick to think of how truly unprepared I was. The affection I felt for him was inescapable, it stuck to me like a parasite simply meant to make a fool of it's adolescent host. I look back on some of my actions and can only shake my head "how did I think THAT was OK?" I ask myself, knowing so answer would come, I'm a senior now but I know I'm still that same girl under two years of growth, I still have no idea. I'm not going to go into detail if that's what you're waiting for, experiencing the embarrassment first hand was plenty enough for me, a second time is unnecessary.

The point I'm vaguely working towards is that I'm thinking of messaging him, bad idea? Yes. I'll let you know how it goes.

My New-Old Computer

I know it's been a long time. The problem began just before summer when my computer's hard drive got sick, however I didn't know that was quite the problem until it was no longer able to even turn on. All I was getting when I pressed the power button was a blue screen with text I had never seen before, I was reminded of the movie Ghost. I sent my poor baby off to my trusty computer guy and it was very long before she was finally returned to me. Meanwhile I was stuck with my mother's computer, a laptop that is considerably slower, I learned patience. However, one thing I didn't even want to bother with on such a slow computer was blogging regardless of the fact that I sometimes had much to say, and so my blog has been inactive until just now.

I had at first been told all my computer's memory would be gone but thanks to my genius computer guy all my files were saved while the hard drive was replaced. And so I have a new computer with all my old files, and as a writer with countless story ideas on this old thing, I find myself endlessly great full.